i think im just gonna give up soon, i cant do this any more i felt like i cnt sleep..depressiosn is kicking in. my own mom can berly support me like always because of her my life mess up yea i blame her bcus its true. remember when you first saw me cry begining of the school yr yeah its because of her! allll because of her… i use not live with my mom. i use to live with my “bestfriend”, and you probably wondering why i look so cool with her. the only why im so cool with her its becus i felt sorry for my little siblings. i figure out that my own little sister was cutting herself and god knows why & now my mom just kissing ass. she thinks if i start working i could give her money & ect. And help her out. honestly i rather help my little sister and be a big good influence towards them im basicly like a mom……………. the reason why i dont wanna help my mom is because she never help me when i was lost and didnt know what to do with my life. i was depress for almost 2 yrs & i was going to a rough time. she didnt give a damn about me, she only cared about herself its always about her. she only cares about how shes feels not how me and my lil sister feels. sorry ms. g i didnt want to tell you what was going on with me im just tired of everything.
Sometimes at night I suddenly become aware of all the things I’m missing out on right now, and all the people who I’m not close to anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who meant the world to me who have forgotten about me forever, and I get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.
fuck! your fucking annoying, i hate how i don’t get to hang out with my friends. i hate how you give all the attention to my sisters. i hate how you think your always right and next thing you know your wrong. i hate fucking listening you. i hate how you think you taught me shit when i was litte kid but honestly my homeboys mom taught me to be a grown women. you never taught me shit. all you taught me is to be stupid. you complained and shit and you let my sister do what ever they want and buy them shit but not me. And you expect me to give you shit. fuck that! i rather spoil myself than spoil them and you. i aint the mom. im tired feeling petty about people. im done for shure. im done im done im done…………….. fuck everyone that screw me over. time to get my shit straight! maybe that’s the reason why i turned to a big bitch.